Friday, January 16, 2009

Soundtrack To My Mother's Death

  1. King of the Road, Roger Miller- This was on the radio the first morning I was back to visit, and we also watched Talladega Nights while I was there. Mom smiled at a few spots in the movie, she really liked goofball comedies, but I don't think she was in a place to enjoy it much.
  2. Ever Present Past, Paul McCartney- Flying up, I couldn't stop listening to this on my MP3 player. I just kept scrolling back and listening again and again, something I don't think I've done since I was a teenager. Mom saw the Beatles when they appeared on Ed Sullivan, and the lyrics, about how time goes by so fast, were just so apropos.
  3. Exodus & Redemption Song, Bob Marley- Mom completely adored reggae, particularly Bob Marley and Peter Tosh, and these two songs were among her favorites.
  4. Starry-eyed Surprise, Shifty- The only "rap" song Mom liked. During her last visit to So Cal, she asked me to turn it up when it came on the radio.
  5. Morning Has Broken, Cat Stevens- A modern hymn that Mom never tired of.
  6. Fandango Nights, Willie and Lobo- The local radio station played this as background music and Mom was so enamored that she called one of the managers, a friend of hers, who burned a copy and brought it to the hospital for her. We listened to the Puerto Vallarta Squeeze album a lot in the days that followed.
  7. Fix You, Coldplay- I'd heard the song before, but it was only after Mom and I watched Young at Heart together that it really made an impact on me. The soaring crescendo near the end followed by the lone, spare voice moves me to tears.
  8. What's Going On, Four Non-Blondes- Another song my mom liked. A friend performed a rough but lovely version of it at her memorial.
  9. Let Peace Begin With Me, Sy Miller and Jill Jackson- My mom's truest wish for the world, and she really did think it began with her.
  10. Dark Side of the Moon, Pink Floyd- The quintessential psychedelic hippie song. She loved the spoken line close to the end of the song, "There is no dark side of the moon, it's all dark."

Three months ago today, and while things soften with time, it still hurts.

8 comments:

Sass said...

I'm sending you positive vibes, my friend...

Another beautiful post, because of it's simplicity.

I love how you share these parts of your life, and actually, your self.

Susan said...

Hugs and love, comfort and courage from all of us J.

xoxo, Susan, Winnie, Bleet, Oliver & Gus

Lisa said...

Very nice. It sounds like it might have been the soundtrack to her life as well.

Cat said...

I love Redemption Song and Fix You.

Thoughts....your way...

Bambi said...

Hey girl, I know you're pain. My mom has been gone for almost 6 years (in July) it still hurts like hell. Weird, our mothers like the same music, i stil love Cat Stevens- Wild World, she used to sing that to me all the time. My biggest hugs and most positive thoughts are with you today and everyday. Bambi

anya said...

I like this post J. Music is so embedded into my life now. It is a constant. I have a sound track for everything I do. There is a pretty long list of songs that were the sound track of the last months before my divorce. They kept me going, that's for sure.

I'm familiar with some of the songs you mention. I'll go over to i-tunes and listen too the others.

hugs, girl.......

Stinkypaw said...

You're not alone...

Susan said...

Hey J,

This is a 7 day check in ...

I'm hopin' that you're whizzing down some sunny street on your scooter with the wind blowing in your hair or maybe enjoying burritos at some tres excellent Mexican café or maybe you're the recent recipient of many kitten kisses which we know are the instant foil for all things bad.

Just checkin'.

Love from les Gang, xo S.